Day 219

#np - Good Feeling by Flo Rida

Capstone is defended!!!!!!!!  I passed!  Today I'm taking Barkley to Fiona's (his grooming boutique), getting a spa pedicure, and then I'm going out with my classmates to celebrate tonight.  CANNOT. WAIT.

Day 218

#np - Bohemian Rapsody by Queen

Here we go, the day that they've talked about for almost two years now.  Today I defend my capstone in front of a panel of professors, a practitioner from the Kentucky Legislative Research Commission, and my fellow classmates.  

Game on, boyfriend.

Lets hope there's a beer afterward and then a mani/pedi on Friday.  One can only hope.

P.S. I don't know what I picked this song except that it's my ultimate "pump me up" song.

Day 217

#np - You Learn by Alanis Morrissette

You live, you learn. You love, you learn. You cry, you learn. You lose, you learn. You bleed, you learn. You scream, you learn.

You grieve, you learn. You choke, you learn. You laugh, you learn. You choose, you learn. You pray, you learn. You ask, you learn.

Wait until the dust settles.

Great advice. Things are looking up.

Day 216

#np - We Owned the Night by Lady Antebellum

Two days until I defend my crapstone.  I'm really ready to get it over with.  After that, my semester is pretty easy. Then I can start packing for the big move!

Day 215

#np - Hold On by Alabama Shakes

Only a few Mondays left before I graduate.  That's something.

Day 214

#np - Cowboy Take Me Away by the Dixie Chicks

Well, yesterday was harder than even I expected.  Going to Louisville by myself was really tough.  The first apartment (the cheapest one) was a bust.  The guy showing it may have been high and totally uninterested since I'm pretty sure he'd already rented it out.  I did end up signing a lease in the Lyndon area after a pep talk from my wonderful brother.  He'd originally offered to come in an help me look but I turned him down.  He certainly came in handy though.

I'm not sure how I feel about moving. On the one hand, I'm excited for my new job.  It's a good opportunity and I will get to travel a lot.  That being said, having a dog isn't conducive to traveling.  I won't have a lot of disposable income so paying a ton for posh pet hotels or live-in pet sitters isn't really an option.  I'm also super worried about making friends.  I know it sounds ridiculous.  I know I'm a likable person.  However, I've always had school or something to help me make friends.  UK has been incredible in helping me socialize.  So how do I figure out how to make friends in Louisville?  

All these questions have made me a stressed out mess. If you're the type to pray or send positive thoughts, I could use some.  

Day 213

#np - Live a Little by Kenny Chesney

Heading to Louisville today check out apartments for Barkley and I.  I'm super nervous to be doing this by myself.  I'm worried about picking a bad neighborhood.  I'm worried about picking someplace I can't really afford.  I'm worried about seeing the one person in Louisville I never want to see again.  And all these worries bring up the worries associated with a new job in a new city - including my worries about Barkley.  Right now he's curled up on my lap sleeping.  I'll disturb him so I can get ready for the day and he'll act perturbed but he isn't, not really.  But what happens if it turns out I am really not taking good care of him in Louisville?  What happens if my biggest fears come to fruition and he ends up being shuttled to a pet hotel every other week?  Will I be able to reconcile my wants with his needs?  Can I be that unselfish?  I'm not so sure and that scares me.  Sorry for the downer post but these are the feelings residing in me lately.  

Day 212

#np - Part of Me by Katy Perry

Another late morning (early afternoon?).  I love them.  And I am soaking them up before I start my big girl job in a month. :)

Day 211

#np - Feels So Good

Capstone is due today.  I turned it in as soon as I was done last night.  Then I proceeded to get the worst, most greasy meal I could find - a burger and fries from Five Guys.  It was soooooooo good.  Then I slept until about 1pm.  Clearly I was tired from the consecutive nights of staying way too late working on it.  Now I wait a week to defend the paper and then I wrap up the semester.  I can't really believe it!

Day 210

#np - The Crossroads by Bone Thugs N Harmony

Wednesdays are the worst.  Why? Because that's the day I have to wake up early for class.  Every other day I have to be on campus in the morning but not by a specific time.  But my 9:30am class on Wednesday kills me.  Two years of easy mornings and late nights have not served me well.  I'm anticipating a rough transition back to the real world where I have to be at work by 8.  I'm also looking at a great apartment in Louisville that will require a pretty good commute in the mornings.  This is going to be rough.