Where It All Started

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Day 213

#np - Live a Little by Kenny Chesney


Heading to Louisville today check out apartments for Barkley and I.  I'm super nervous to be doing this by myself.  I'm worried about picking a bad neighborhood.  I'm worried about picking someplace I can't really afford.  I'm worried about seeing the one person in Louisville I never want to see again.  And all these worries bring up the worries associated with a new job in a new city - including my worries about Barkley.  Right now he's curled up on my lap sleeping.  I'll disturb him so I can get ready for the day and he'll act perturbed but he isn't, not really.  But what happens if it turns out I am really not taking good care of him in Louisville?  What happens if my biggest fears come to fruition and he ends up being shuttled to a pet hotel every other week?  Will I be able to reconcile my wants with his needs?  Can I be that unselfish?  I'm not so sure and that scares me.  Sorry for the downer post but these are the feelings residing in me lately.  

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